A'ouzo billahi min-aash-shaitan-ir-rajeem.

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

for starters...

Bismillah..

So -when we were in TO we applied for a mortgage and we weren't approved. I didn't care so much because I didn't want to stay there, but when we got here it didn't cross my mind that we should even try to buy - we were not at our best financially, and I was on MAT leave anyway.

Baba really wants the kids to have a nice space to grow up in, but at the same time he's scared that anything can happen and we will be stuck with a mortgage etc etc. I don't know...I don't think about it like that, but that's another story for another day.

So I started looking behind the scene, trying to figure out what's out there and what our options are. For starters, because this would be our first house, I keep hearing the words “starter home”. Okay, so I gt it, we have never bought before so this should be something small, but does it really make sense? Even baba's buying into this "thing"- whatever it is.
I have moved so many times that I am NOT looking for a starter home, I am looking for something that I can stay in for a while. I know he would disagree, but I am not really hard to please. I came to this apartment knowing that we were not going to stay - I still have things in boxes, lol. I have lived in and out of boxes for too many years. I want to settle down.

Whatever we find, all I want is the option to stay there, inshaAllah. I don't want the basic house with stuff that needs fixing all the time - you know the fixer-upper that's a real great investment because it will pay off in the end...no, not for me. Not this time.